Dithering.

So this afternoon, I have that rare commodity that is time to myself.

I have had a friend Lena staying since Thursday, and the boys all week, and today has seen the boys being whisked off to the Dorset coast at 9.30, and Lena leaving at 2. As I knew I would have the afternoon to myself (this is something of a shell shock after being with lovely people for a while) I planned to cycle. A real, proper, training sort of ride. What I had forgotten to bargain for was this spectacular English summer we are having.

I am such a fair weather sort of cyclist.

And so, right now it is 3pm, I am sitting in my cycling gear, ready for the off. But it is pouring. Three times in the last hour I have looked out the window, seen that the rain had died down a little from torrential downpour to drizzle, stood up. started moving to get things ready to go - and by the time I got to the back door in the kitchen we were back at downpour status. And three times I have returned to the computer. I have played all my moves in scrabulous, updated my face book status, sent a message trying to organise my social life, downloaded FireFox, looked up the sustrans website to get a grip of where the off-road cycle path actually starts in great elm. And now I am writing this.

The thought of going out for a cycle ride really appeals - in the sun! The thought of going somewhere that I really don't quite know how to get to, and spending two hours soaking wet fighting the wind and aching in the process; does not.

I clearly have a choice, I can either stop in and work today, (I have lots to do!), or I can go despite the rain and in hope of sunshine. The trouble is I can't even decide whether to try and cycle to the start of the cycle path at Great Elm or to drive there!

So I have, instead, spent the last hour dithering and continue to do so.I have now put a jacket potato in the oven as I am in need of sustenance, and will work until that is devoured and then re-assess the situation.

I still have tomorrow evening - so maybe I will go then.....